You know me

I'm sitting here eating eggs and bacon at 12:46. Did you need to know that? no. Did you care? probably not.

"You know every detail of my life. For You are God and You don't miss a thing"

This song- It's my go-to most days. I don't even know if I can count the amount of times I've listened to it. On bad days. On good days. It's a song I listen to when I just want background noise.

What's mind boggling to me is that a God as infinite and powerful as mine would love me as much as He does. He knows every.detail.of.my.life... How foolish of me to be discontent with my life when I have the God who made the universe loving me more that I can fathom! Why do I get so upset when others don't treat me like I'm important to them? I have all that I need. All the love I could ever want, but still my wandering heart chooses to tell me that's not enough.

You know when I rise or when I fall
When I come or go, you see it all
You hung the stars and you move the sea
and STILL you know me

God isn't too busy for me and He is in control of the whole universe! Sometimes I just sit here and cry. I cry because I'm overwhelmed by how unworthy I am of His love and yet He shows me His goodness over and over again without regret. I can't hide from His love. No matter if I think I deserve it or not. I cry because I'm not thankful enough for how much He cares about me. If I can't find satisfaction in His love, there is no where that I can find satisfaction.

Then through my tears, I laugh. What kind of crazy being could love me enough to know every detail about me?! My imperfections- no matter how ugly and loves me anyways. My wants and desires- and whether they match up with what is best for me. My joys- and the fact that He was the one who created them (aka people and food).

God is love. So what a joy it is to be able to love Him back. His love fulfills me. So from that, I can be filled with His love which strengthens me enough to love others even when they don't love me back.

Psalm 118:1
Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; his lovingkindess is everlasting.

Psalm 116:1-5
I love the LORD, because He hears my voice and supplications.
Because He has inclined His ear to me, Therefore I shall call upon Him as long as I live.
The cords of death encompassed me and the terrors of Sheol came upon me;
I found distress and sorrow. Then I called upon the name of the LORD:
"O LORD, I beseech You, save my life!"
Gracious is the LORD, and righteous; yes, our God is compassionate.


Thank you Lord, for this love that I in no way deserve.

Romans 8:5-9

For those who are according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, 
but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. 
For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, 
because the mind set on the flesh is hostile towards God; 
for it does not subject itself to the law of God, 
for it is not even able to do so, and those who are in the flesh cannot please God. 
However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. 
But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him. 
Romans 8:5-9

Those who are according to the flesh (unbelievers) set their mind on the things of the flesh (worldly things). BUT those according to the Spirit (believers) set their mind on the things of the Spirit (heavenly matters). 

Man, that's pretty convicting for me. What are my thoughts consumed with? Often I focus on me, my problems and worries, the things that make me happy- some pretty worldly perspectives. But as a believer, my mind is to be fixed on my Savior and how I can please Him.

For the mind set on flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, because the mind set on the flesh is hostile towards God. 

This couldn't be more true. When I'm focused on the things of the flesh, I feel empty, lost, overwhelmed with doubt because my worldly focus ends in death and in that moment, I'm not living like God is in control. So, when I change my thoughts to things of the Spirit, I remember life and peace: things that only come from Christ and His words. When I am in God's word, I feel a peace like I cannot feel in any other circumstance. I'm no longer focusing on myself and how I can better myself, but changing those thoughts to how BIG our God is and how He is the only one who can change me when I'm surrendered to Him.

for it does not subject itself to the law of God, for it is not even able to do so, and those who are in the flesh cannot please God.

How scary is that statement? those who are in the flesh cannot please God. If I hadn't trusted Christ as my Savior, I could try my best to please Him, but it's impossible! All efforts of pleasing God are futile if one does not know Him.
I'm really not that much of a people-pleaser, I couldn't care less about what some people thought of me. But, if I hold someone in high regard, I care more than anything about pleasing them: my parents, those in leadership over me, most of my friends, ect. In the same way, I want my life to be a burnt offering to Him, a soothing aroma, something that is pleasing to Him. I want to make Him happy with the way that I go about things. So, I must subject myself to the law of God. He who gives attention to the word will find good, and blessed is he who trust in the LORD. Proverbs 16:20 

However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you. 
But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him. 

Because the Spirit of God dwells in me, I belong to Him, I am not in the flesh, so things would be counteractive to have my mind set on the flesh. My selfish thoughts are not beneficial, they leave me feeling empty and if that's the case, why wouldn't I focus on the Creator? He walks with me through my problems, I can rest in Him and feel comfort.



Lord,
 Help me change my thoughts: To focus on You- God, You are bigger than I can fathom. You're holding the world in Your hands. Help me focus on what You want from me to have me be pleasing to You. Help me surrender my ways to You, today and everyday. It's such a simple concept, but I often want control. Mold me and break me if that's what it takes, so that I can rest in You.

The Great Author

To say to me that the Bible or any book in it is boring or uneventful, I would tell you that you’re not reading the same book as I am. Try teaching it to 3^rd graders and you will see what I mean. I’ve been going through the book of Genesis with my 3^rd grade Sunday school class and within the 2 or 3^rd week, I was already asked about circumcision and concubines… Oh boy.

The Nephilim in Genesis 6, Genesis 19 with homosexual men in Sodom and Gomorrah and the end of the chapter when Lot’s daughters lay with him to preserve the family, or Jacob’s daughter Dinah being raped- these just being a handful of stories that are not often talked about and that's only in the first 30 chapters of the Bible! It is challenging to talk about these stories without explaining things that 3^rd graders don’t need to know about, but the principles are always there and hopefully I’m able to convey them properly.

You and I have no excuse to not study the word of God: to ask ourselves why God would choose to put these stories in His letter for us?

2 Timothy 3:16-17 All scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work.

I think it’s amazing that a book as old as the Bible would still be so relevant to the ever changing times that we live in. A book that touches on every aspect we face in our daily lives- inspired by the One who made and holds everything in its place. Why wouldn’t we want to know everything about the book that points us to our gracious and loving Savior?

Last year I spent 10 months in Florida with 11 other students in a program called Great Commission Bible Institute.  Our goal was to study this entire letter that was not written to us, but was written for us. It was the most convicting, growing and inspiring time of my life. But just because I graduated the program doesn’t mean I stop learning and studying and now I get the privilege of teaching it to kids in my hometown church.

I hope and pray that my life is shaped and changed more and more with every word that I read, that it’s not only head knowledge, but that it’s heart knowledge.

 The more you read the Bible, the more you will love its author. –AW Tozer

Sin- a big deal

 Sins that once bothered you- won’t affect you anymore. It doesn’t just happen in a day, it happens over a long period of time. I mean, look what happens throughout the world. What used to be appalling starts to become the norm- Abortions, couples living together out of wedlock, teen pregnancy, immodesty, bad morals.

The first example that came to mind was bikinis. I know, they are popular today, even for Christians. But your choices are seen by the non-believing world. 

In the 1890’s, ladies swimwear had weights sewn into the bottoms to prevent the suit from riding up and their legs showing. Then as time moves on, in 1907, Australian swimmer and performer Annette Kellerman(to the left) was arrested on a Boston beach for wearing a formfitting one piece. Then in the 1940’s, midriffs were exposed and swimsuits became made of less and less material.  In 1946, Louis Reard, came up with the “smaller than the world’s smallest swimsuit” and named in the Bikini because he predicted that it would be as explosive as the U.S. military’s nuclear testing at Bikini Atoll. At first, none of the Parisian models dared to wear the design. So a nude dancer was the first woman to ever wear and model a bikini. A nude dancer was the only woman daring enough to begin the new trend, you know why? Cause she was a nude dancer. From there- women in bikinis were shown on the covers of Playboy and Sports Illustrated. Today, no one has a problem with everyone wearing them. Of course it is legalistic to say that no woman who respects herself should wear such a swimsuit. Of course time has changed our view of what is acceptable in woman’s dress, but have we evaluated what we think is right and why our culture has decided that these things are right?

Don’t base your judgment on someone else’s judgment. You have to decide what is right and wrong for you according to God’s Word. My point is- have we really sat down and thought through why something is and is not okay? Or have we desensitized ourselves to something that is blatantly wrong?

God’s people have done it all through scripture, so this isn’t anything surprising. But in Leviticus, when God gave the law to His people, the theme behind it was “Be holy, just as I am holy”. We’ve seem to have strayed a long distance from that statement. If I reminded myself of that statement every day and multiple times a day, it would change me. How haunting is that statement? Be holy, just as God is holy. The man who is without fault and that is how we are supposed to be. We mess up, because we are not perfect, but we are called to live to the highest standard!

 In 2 Kings 22-23, the book of the law was rediscovered in the time of King Josiah. God’s people LOST His Word’s to them. Why? Because over time God’s people slowly became less and less interested in His words.

I pray that God gives me a sensitivity to sin, that I would be evaluating my choices and actions and making sure that His opinion of me is the only one that would affect me. Just as David said in Psalm 51:

1 Be gracious to me, O God, according to Your lovingkindness; According to the greatness of Your compassion blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me. 4 Against You, You only, I have sinned and done what is evil in Your sight, so that You are justified when You speak and blameless when You judge.

The whole chapter is David pouring out his heart and feeling the guilt of his sin. And he felt that way, because he was sensitive to sin. When we care more about God’s commandments and pleasing him with our lives, then we will understand what He thinks is acceptable and worthy of bringing Him praise.

How empty would your life be without God? What purpose is there other than pleasing Him?

I was going to write a different article about pleasing God, but it fits in pretty well with what I just talked about.

Newsflash people: Praying "the prayer" isn’t a get out of hell free card. When you decide to follow God and love Him, your life changes. You become sensitive to sin. How can you love someone and NOT show them? If you don’t show them, what are the chances that they really matter to you? Very slim. That sounds like a pretty miserable marriage going on.

Love is about seeing what someone else needs and putting your own selfish desires aside. So, if that is the case, why have we made it seem like you can just “pray the prayer of salvation” and then you will magically end up in heaven after living a life that has nothing to do with pleasing a real God. If you live your life like God doesn’t exist, then I’d say that’s exactly what you believe. I’m thinking a lot of people are going to end up in Hell when they’ve gone through their whole life thinking they were in the safe-zone of Christianity.

You’re saved by God’s grace. Why live in sin any longer? That is what God freed you from! Romans 6:1-4 says it perfectly:

1 What shall we say then? Are we to continue in sin so that grace may increase? 2 May it never be! How shall we who died to sin still live in it? 3 Or do you not know that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus have been baptized into His death? 4 Therefore we have been buried with Him through baptism into death, so that as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, so we too might walk in newness of life.

How you live your life reflects your true beliefs. So -how are you living?

Redefining Modesty

 I think it is safe to say that our society’s dress code has definitely changed over the years.

And so has our personal view of what is appropriate and what is not as time changes the norm. Some lean toward the conservative side and others jump in and join the culture.

As a young Christian woman, I have been taught about dressing modestly my entire life, from my mother, older women in our church, and pastor’s wives. They always stress the importance of making sure that you don’t cause your any men in your life to stumble and to keep your body covered. They are sure to tell you what is and isn’t appropriate. That’s awesome. I am so glad that they instilled that in me as I grew up. But one thing they didn’t tell me. Modesty starts in the heart and flows out of it.

It’s easy to turn Christianity into a check-list, a rule book of ‘do this’ and ‘don’t do that’. But we can get so caught up in the actions of that, and it then becomes monotonous.

I love hearing about other results of doing the right thing. Such as, don’t have sex because:

•  You might get an STD. 
• You might become pregnant. 
• You will carry around baggage. 
• You won’t find as much fulfillment in your marriage. 

But what about this: DON’T HAVE SEX CAUSE GOD TOLD YOU NOT TO AND YOUR LOVE FOR HIM SHOULD CAUSE YOU NOT TO UNTIL YOU’RE MARRIED. Hmmm, never thought of that one, eh?

Of course, not every article that is written is like that. Most of the articles I've read are though, and it is easy to start thinking like that. I should dress modestly because I want to save myself for my husband and not to cause my Christian brothers to be tempted to sin. BUT, most of all, I should dress modestly because that is what I have been told to do by the One who loves me most, by God.

So let’s talk about modesty and what it is. Modesty and humbleness are synonyms. Modesty, according to Dictionary.com, is said to be- the quality of not being too proud or confident about yourself or your abilities. It’s the same in how you dress, deflecting attention from yourself.

A friend of mine was complaining to me about how someone she knows dresses. She seems to write her off for it, because she thinks she knows her heart. I’m sad that most people can’t be friends with someone because they have “big sin” in their lives. As humans, we all have sin in our lives, but if it is concealed and hidden well enough, it doesn't affect anyone or anything… that’s all a big, fat LIE! Your sin affects those around you whether it is obvious or hidden, so it’s not fair to write someone off because you think that you know their heart.

Basically, what I’m trying to say is, it is wrong to dress immodestly. But to see someone who has not grown up being told how you should and shouldn't dress and then writing them off because you think “they are seeking attention” is mean and unfair.

I could (and have before) dressed in, what some would say is, perfectly modest clothing and still be immodest. If I was wearing something that I had planned to wear and thought to myself “I’m going to wear this so that others compliment me and think I have great style”, it’s immodest. When you think of it in this way, it’s easier to see the flaws of ‘is this appropriate or not’. And it can bring to light the immodesty of some men too.

Please. Please, please, please be careful about what you wear as a woman who is trying to guard herself and protect her brothers in Christ. But it all begins in your heart. And most importantly, be modest during worship.

Which is what Paul writes about in 1 Timothy 1:9&10- When they come to pray, likewise, I want women to adorn themselves with proper clothing, modestly and discreetly, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly garments, but rather by means of good works, as is proper for women making a claim to godliness.

Your goal on Sundays, and anytime you are going to corporate worship, should be not to distract anyone by your appearance and you should not be looking to stick out. But, you should want others to see your good works which is announcing the reverence of the Holy One through your actions.

Modesty is important in a world that lives free and wild. Like everything else in our Christian walk, it sets us apart. So maybe the next time you put an article of clothing and you stand in the mirror, maybe you should ask yourself- “is this going to draw or deflect attention to myself today?”

Ladies, please stop.

I found a gold mine. Seriously, I was on a plane when I came across it. So I dug in. It was so refreshing. No, I didn’t strike rich, at least not literally. Figuratively though, I’m more wealthy than a millionaire. I love 1^st Peter.  And 2^nd Peter, but as I studied 1^st Peter on the plane home from visiting Washington state, I just kept finding more things that got my mind thinking…. Thinking how sad it is that not many people like what the Bible has to say. I agree, the Bible is controversial, it goes against pretty much everything the culture tell us is right. It’s uncomfortable, but it’s a fountain of wisdom that just keeps giving. I have to do things that I don’t want to, because I understand that I don't understand what is always good for me, but I know the only God who does. 

So, 1^st Peter- I was getting lost in chapter 2 and 3. (I’m going to try to explain why I loved it so much, emphasis on the try part.) The end of chapter 1 talks about how great it is that we were saved by the grace of God. Jump into chapter 2, since that is such a great thing, this is what we should do- put away your former ways of living and change your worldview to a Biblical and Godly one. Crave the Word of God, knowing that He and His ways were rejected by men. We were made by Him and for Him, to proclaim Him.

Christians, if truly following the Word, are going to stick out like a sore thumb….. I’m now sitting here thinking about that saying. Seriously, that sounds as lame as the actual word ‘lame’. Maybe I should have said, ‘sticks out like broken bone’. Anddddd now I’m sorry for that mental picture.

People are watching Christians, waiting for them to mess up and when they do, to kick them while they’re down. As the world watches, we are told to submit. It’s a pretty common word and to us it seems to come across as the worst thing in the world. It’s not easy, although, truthfully nothing beneficial is. “What?! You want me to place myself under someone else’s authority? That can’t be right.” Yep, you read that right. Submit to the king and governors. So that by doing right you may silence the ignorance of foolish men. We are supposed to listen to the rules of those who are over you in power. Shocker. No, not really, but it is easier said than done. Of course, if it goes against the Word of God, the Word of God will always trump, but for those other rules and laws that seem unimportant to you, follow them anyway. Why? Because the God of the universe commanded you to and I’m 1,000 percent sure that He knows what He is doing. It gets more difficult, later on in the passage it says honor the king. Ouch, that’s worse. I have to submit to and honor a man that I don’t even like as a president to our country? Yikes. It’s life. In comes verse 18, “servants, be submissive to your masters with all respect, not only to those who are good and gentle, but also to those who are unreasonable.” Need I say more?

I’ve been called for this purpose, since Christ also suffered for me. He left me an example to follow, while being beaten and mocked and laughed at, He entrusted Himself to the Lord. You know why? He went through that that we might die to ourselves and live to righteousness.

These commands seem like a foreign language to the watching world. But the next part seems insulting to the women of this day and age.

3:1- IN THE SAME WAY, you wives, be submissive to your own husbands so that even if any of them are disobedient to the word, they may be won without a word by the behavior of their wives.

I don’t think it could have been spoken any plainer. Jesus was submissive to God and let the outcome up to Him, wives are supposed to do the same thing! Women, your submission is supposed to be a testimony to others! In this verse it is referencing a marriage when both husband and wife, at one time, were unbelievers and the woman was converted. The passage goes on to say to wives that their husbands should see that their actions are not merely external, which is sometimes the most obvious way, but also that their heart has changed.

3:7- You husbands IN THE SAME WAY, live with your wives in an understanding way, as with someone weaker, since she is a woman; and show her honor as a fellow heir of the grace of life, so that your prayers will not be hindered.

I thought that statement would bother me, “as with someone weaker”. How have we looked at that as a bad thing?! Why do we feel that, as women, we need to be as great as or greater than men? We have different roles, it’s incomparable. I read a Matt Walsh post a while back and thought it explained things perfectly how I had imagined it, although I might have been less harsh about it. This was from that post:

You know, maybe it would be wise to raise our daughters to have an appreciation for manhood. Maybe we should stop filling her head with this “you can do everything a man can do” garbage. Maybe she isn’t benefitted by this lie. Maybe it will only make her bitter and arrogant. Maybe it will cause her to see men as worthless, with the only characteristics particular to them being negative stereotypes about leaving the toilet seat up and drinking too much beer.

Maybe we should tell her that it is men who fight the wars, and men who are best equipped for the task. This is not because of “discrimination” or “glass ceilings,” it’s because men are men, and women are not. Women need men. GASP. What a scandalous notion. But I say it again: women need men.

In some ways, being “treated as someone weaker” is a beautiful picture in my mind. It means that men shouldn’t treat us like they do their manly-men-friends. Men are supposed to treat us like we’re special and valuable. But instead, we can’t embrace it because we are too busy getting caught up by the fact that we aren’t on the same level as men. We aren't in charge. Guess what, dear? You’re gonna have to get over it and accept that that’s not your job. For me, I don’t want to be a man, that’s too much responsibility. I want to be able to learn and practice submission and properly portray it as an example of Christ’s submission to His Father.

I’m starting. I’m starting to get over it. I grew up somehow convincing myself that it wasn’t okay to be treated as someone weaker. I needed to be as good at everything as my brothers. I had to play with GI Joe’s cause Barbie’s were too girly. Never cry! Crying is a sign of weakness, I wasn’t weak… or so I tried to convince myself. I wanted their respect, but I went about it in the wrong way. Then, as I grew and matured, I started to embrace it all, all the differences. I’m still the same girl who doesn’t like to be prissy or one who chooses to be proper all the time, but I was a bit extreme. Now, I’m learning to embrace it. It’s okay that I’m not as strong as men and that I can’t be the leader of a household.

In fact, I love that we are different. Women are confusing and I apologize to any man that tries to understand us, cause I don’t always understand. Culture has brainwashed women into thinking that they aren’t good enough if they aren’t on the same level as men and in leadership positions. That’s the curse. It’s not a new thing, in fact, it came into the world when sin did.

Submitting to someone is an unnatural thing, especially since it has been engrained in us to be in a competition with the men in our lives. As women, it’s part of our testimony, whether to an unbelieving husband or a believing husband. No, I’m not married, so I can’t really give advice to people who are married, but I can shine a light on Biblical truth. It does look different for me at this stage in my life, I don’t have a husband to submit to, but that doesn’t mean I get out of practicing submission. I still have people over me- my parent, my supervisors and bosses, the church, etc. I’m not saying it will be easy, but I’m saying it will be worth it.  

DO NOT read this post

NEWSFLASH: this blog is not for you. It's actually quite selfish. (Because I'm almost in my 'selfish twenties'. LOL JK, that's the stupidest thing I've ever heard.)

In fact, I don't even care if no one reads this blog. I'm making this blog because I told myself that I never would. In my mind, blogs are "just a trend"; they're becoming more and more popular and I promised myself I wouldn't go with the flow and join the bloggers. 

Seriously, I am in no way a writer. I'm not even grammatically correct on a good day! I ramble on and on about things that bother me, til even I'm sick of the topic. 

I've always wanted to write beautiful things, but I've accepted that that is not my gift. It's for creative people that know how to keep people entertained with words. 

Why did I randomly start a blog, you might be thinking? Because I felt like it. Actually, because I'm learning to fail my goals. Bear with me. I've been bound to goals for as long as I can remember. Stupid goals that have no real meaning. So, here begins my ramblings:

I've been reading. Yes, I read books, shocking to people who know me best. In fact, I've read 2 and a half within the last week and a half. Sometimes when I read my mind wanders. I begin to get lost in my own thoughts. I've been reading Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts. Her way of writing begins to twist my mind and I tell myself that I can throw my words on a piece of paper and they will magically fit together beautifully, like a puzzle. So I become an author. A terrible author. And that bothers me. I can't write. So a war begins, between my goals and my distractions. It's a funny thing, really- to be inspired. I continue reading, trying to shut my wandering thoughts off, but they continue. I tell myself that I can't stop now, I haven't made it to a stopping point in my book, either the end of the chapter or at least one of those random swirly things that separate parts of chapters. The words that I continue reading start to become jumbled together. "What am I even reading about again?" I'm lost. So I make it to the end of a paragraph, shut the book and open my journal. It's ridiculous really, how I've managed to set a goal for myself without even realizing it and it controls my menial tasks. 

The more I think about it, numerous goals that I've thought up begin to rise to the surface. 

• Eating all the food off my plate, even if it means wanting to vomit because I've eaten so much already. 
• Finish the dishcloth that I've started, even when my fingers are numb from knitting all day(yes, I'm an old lady at heart.) 
• Read to the end of the chapter, even if my mind wanders and I gain no content- even if my eyes won't stay open another minute. 
• Get to the bottom page on Pinterest, even if means staying away for an extra half hour while already dreading having to get up the next morning. 

(Of course these are tiny goals that are merely trifles compared to my life goals, but you get the picture.)

I love goals, really I do. But there is not much that drives me more than accomplishing that goal, even if I've set it too high. I'm afraid of failure. We all are, aren't we? So maybe I just set goals that aren't important, because I know that I can finish them. It's all black and white to me. Win or lose. Accomplish or fail. Why am I bound to this? This list of "to do's" that really mean nothing? 

When I miss those goals that I've set for myself, I get upset. I've missed it, I missed the mark. Why can't I do things because I enjoy it? Even worse, sometimes I set goals out of spite. 'This person told me I couldn't eat a brownie that big', so of course I set myself a new goal. A goal that leaves me hating myself(pretty dramatic, eh?) cause I've had one too many brownies. 

I've created a barrier. I'm only satisfied with success. What if I truly tried my best and still failed? Then I tell myself that I haven't really tried. I'm bound. Bound by winning or losing, there is nothing else. My thinking is flawed. Why are we so afraid of failure? WHO CARES IF WE FAIL? At least I tried. I can be so hard on myself. We can learn so much from failing, from falling down and getting back up. If only we would see failure in that light. 

If I continue this terrible process, I will never set goals that truly scare me. And that scares me. 

People in the Bible failed all the time. I'm going to have to accept that it is part of life. Goals that teach me to fully rely on the Lord to be able to complete them are the only type of real life goals that I should have. So often I've never allowed myself to do something for some silly reason, but really I've don't think about my goals through the filter of whether it's glorifying to God or not. 

Society has told us that you can do anything you want if you put your mind to it. (Or in Janae's case- You can do anything you you put your mind too, no matter how short you may be ;) Disney has made some pretty great movies, I mean really, they make people cry over animated creatures... Or maybe I'm the only one to cry at Frozen, it's just so sweet! Anyways, I loved Monster's University theme. *SPOILER ALERT* Mike Wazowski is training to be a "scarer". He is book smart and can ace all the tests in the scare program, but he lacks one thing: being scary. The point of the story was that sometimes you have a different fit than you were dreaming of, and that's not a bad thing! But how would you ever know if you had never tried something? Maybe you're not fit to do the thing you love or dreamed of. I don't believe I'm fit to be a writer or a photographer, although it sounds like a beautiful dream. How would I ever know if I hadn't tried and failed though? 

Maybe I'm not making sense to you, that's fine. You can read someone else's blog. Go for it. Seriously, I'm not offended. I never claimed to be the world's best or most interesting writer. 

So at the end of the day, I've failed my goal. I wrote a blog and you know what, I don't care if no one reads it. I don't care if it's not the next biggest hit. I'm trying something new and I think that's awesome and I pray that my words are only glorifying to the One who made me.